I ❤ jooie...

hiie...

saw vanessa . chia todae..
cant believe it...

actualli is she call miie deh...

if she didnt call miie i dun think i would see her...

guess wat was her veri first sentence ...

wow angie eu so tall!!!

=.=

are eu beening sacatistic

or is it real??

haha=]

anyway...

i havent beenin myself tis few daes...

i dunno why...

especialli durin fridae...

maybe cas i know tat dae will be th veri last day "we" work in a team...

we seem to talk more on fridae...

we even at th veri least sms one another a few times...

though first one was miie who started it...

but he still did ask miie qns...

gary is starting to suspect...

he thinks i like jooie ...

cas...

i had been siding him though i always say i hate him...

i wonder if we are making up??

is it consider as making up??

would we fight again??

i dunno...

but i realli hope we dun ...

cas tis is th last year we goin to stay in a class together...

i dun want to spend th year like we used to last year....

he means a lot to miie...

this year means a lot to miie ...

i love eu jooie...

a.q

random pictures of my cute. adorable and chio sister =]

just some random pictures i took with my sis...

isnt she cute, adorable and chio like miie??

haha...

jkjk...

she's my beloved sister =]

lurve her lots...

i veri gd to her deh okayys??

hahax

got to go...

buaiis~!

why do eu always lie to miie??
when would eu keep ur promises for once??
i am realli disappointed at eu...
eu promised to be there for miie no matter wat ...
but where was eu when i nided eu??
i realli lurve eu ...
why do eu have to do tis to miie??
do i realli onli deserve tis much??
=[

i am tired of fightin with eu

todae ...
eu hurt miie in th heart again...
though i didnt show tat i was hurt...
but ...
deep inside...
its like i was been stabb in th heart...
whenever i let eu win ...
whenever i give in to eu ...
eu would say : " YES! "
but actualli...
i didnt realli want to let eu...
its just tat...
i am too tired to fight with eu...
tis might be th last year we be in th same class...
i realli dun want to spend th rest of th year with eu fightin...
so i had to give in to eu...
i know eu are veri happi when i let eu win...
and when i didnt take part in ur life...
so ...
i would try not to bother eu...
since eu prefer us not to be frens...
but i was wonderin ...
when would we ever be friends again...
when will be stop fightin ...
i realli regret fightin with eu last year...
but i knoe its all too late...
i am realli tired of puttin a fake " dun care " kind of look...
whenever eu and gary say nasty things bout miie...
but ...
i dun think tis is possible anymore...
i would try my best...
but i can no longer decieve myself...
i realli like eu ALOT...
i want to knoe th reason for eu to hate miie...
though i did hear from lots of ppl its because ...
i dun care about my frens feelin and i betrayed my frens...
but wat i did was obviousli for her own gd...
its okayys how others think about miie...
but i cant believe tis is how eu think about miie...
i want to hear it from eu personalli!!!
i am realli disappointed..................................

th more i hate eu ... th more i love eu

nth else can describe my feelin now better thn th song :
" Fall To Pieces" by Avril Lavigne.
tis are th lyrics
I looked away
then I looked back at you,
You tried to say
the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way
I'd never get over you,
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything
Everything!

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
and I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
'Cause I'm in love with you.
I'm in love with you,
I'm in love with you.

~~~~~
tats all....
nth much ...
just want eu to knoe
all my pain started when eu said : " I hate eu "
i realli wish i heard wrongly and is actualli : " I LOVE EU "
but i can no longer decieve myself whenever eu say hurtful stuff....
i want to why!
i want to know wat did i did wrong??
tat make eu hate mie??
why do eu want to hurt miie over and over again??
am i realli tat easy bullied??
why??
i want to know why!
i want to know why isnt possible 4 us at th veri least be friens?
th more i hate eu ...
th more i love eu ...

爱

爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
恨安定
爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱
是不可數的吗
为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我
爱
不单行别害怕

~~

什么是爱
有一天，
女人问男人“你说，爱的最高境界是什么?”
男人想了想，说：“是生与死吧~! 　
你想啊~！一个人可以为另一个人去死 　
舍去生命中最重要的一切，还不是爱的最高境界吗？”
女人点了点头，又摇了摇头 　
开始时她也是这么认为的 　　
因为许多的爱情最壮烈的时候总是会和生与死联系在一起的 　
那些流传千古的爱情无一不是生生死死，总之悲情者居多 　
可是，更多的俗人之间的爱情却只有平常的爱与恨 　
只有平常的悲伤与快乐 　
“那你说是什么？”男人问 　
女人笑了，“是习惯，当你习惯了一个人生活中的习惯 　　
你就真的爱上他了 爱情是一个人对另一个人习惯的认同 　
爱到最高境界就是认同了他的习惯 　
一个女人习惯了一个男人的鼾声 　
从不适应到习惯再到没有他的鼾声就睡不着觉，这就是爱
一个男人习惯了一个女人的任性、撒娇，甚至无理取闹、无事生非，这就是爱 　　
一个人会为了另一个人去改变、去迁就，这就是爱
爱情的哲学有时候就是这么简单，就在生活的点滴里 　　
你如果始终不能适应一个人，适应他的所有习惯，那只说明你没有爱他 　　
或者说你还未到爱的境界，因为爱就在这些细节里 　
当你已经习惯你的爱人所有习惯 　　
比如他衣服的烟草味，比如他干净的衬衣,比如他半夜起来看足球 　
如果这些你都已习惯，那么不要再问爱是什么这样愚蠢的话题了
爱，有时候就是这么简单、朴素 　
它像一杯在我们身边的白开水 　
伸手可及，喝了,让我们觉得凉爽舒服”

buaiis~!

what am i to him??

i am rather confused ...
why do i mind so much about how he thinks about miie??
i dunno why either...
whenever he say something bad about miie...
i nvr seem to mind for long...
maybe its cas i like him much more than i hate him...
or maybe he stands a veri impt position in my heart...
but i know something so sure tat sometimes thinkin about it makes miie cry...
tat is...
to him...
i ' m some1 tat will nvr be given a impt position in his heart...
maybe its cas...
he hates miie...
maybe to him...
i am some1 who dun care towards my friends...
maybe to him ...
i am some1 who cant lose...
maybe to him...
i ' m some1 extra in his world...
maybe to him...
i ' m a B***H...
i dunno...
but all i knoe is...
i can no longer fall deeper into the trap...
or i would nvr be able to come out ...
i would nvr forget about him and move forward...
buaiis~!

i am emo-ing again! why arent eu there for miie this time??

now i am feelin rather confused...
i dunno...
its like...
i realli like being the class's vice chairperson...
its gives miie great sastifaction...
i feel really happi when i was the monitress...
but i wasnt choosen...
i just wasnt choosen...
but jinyao was choosen...
and robin too...
robin is popular...
hence ppl vote for him...
do eu think robin would want to be the vice chairperson??
i dunno...
but i know i would!
but no one would vote for miie...
=[
i feel disappointed...
though josiah feel happi that his no longer the class vice chairperson...
i realli miss workin together with him...
its the most happi and sad time or my life...
we had been though so mani ups and down together!!!
its like we had spent one year with each other...
we laugh , quarrel and pain together...
workin with him is like alreadi part of my life!
i dun think i can do without him!
haix...
but 1 thing i'm veri sure...
is tat he can still move forward with miie in his life...
in stead he can live on even better...
he really hate miie to th core =[
i realli dunno how i am feelin now...
=[
i feel so emo...
i want talk to amelia...
but she got piano lesson...
jordan ...
basketball trainin =[
dodo...
dunno how his doin now...
i dun realli keep in touch with him leh...
is like...
we are no longer friends??
after beenin together for 2 years...
he still dunno miie well...
he dun understand how i am feelin on th inside!
i cant talk to him anymore...
cas whenever we talk...
after a while ...
we nwould start to quarrel again!!!
i dunno...
i just think he doesnt care about miie!
he show more care to Jessica then miie...
tis shows how NOT impt i am in his life...
so breakin up is the best choice for th both of us...
if we dun not want to suffer anymore....
though i did miss him in the beganning...
i miss the times we went out together...
i miss the time we share fries together...
i miss the time he tell miie he love miie...
i miss the time we went on a double date with amelia & jordan...
=[
buaiiis~!

2e2 suckx!!!!

你们好!
hahax
tried out the chinese words...
so ...
not bad!
but my hanyupinyin suckx!
haix...
nth much quarrel with pamela and sue-ann todae...
its not my fault L0ls...
is they never care about how i feel...
ask them w8 ...
also nvr w8...
just run off some more
-.0
2nd esther chan jie yi!
haix...
sheryl also like not so close to us leh ...
haix...
everi thing is like to different now!
dunno wat to do...
i hate 2e2...
2e2 sUcKx!!!!!
gtg buaiis~!

confession

todae...
willis confessed to miie...
hahax...
i was " L0ls, cut th joke out... "
he was like ...
" i am serious lols !!! "
lame...
but i didnt accept him...
i nid time to think....
i dun want to make th same mistake again!!!
i cant make any more mistakes...
i was wonderin why ppl say " i love eu " but didnt mean it....
its realli scary to be hurt by some1 eu like a lot ....
this year i am goin to focus on my studies...
and think about nth else....
so ...
i guess...
there's no way he can " touch " miie ...
Buaiis~!

borin dae

hiie...

nth much todae??

borin...

had lessons alreadi...

did maths and chinese hw...

nth else =]

erm...

we talk much more than mondae =]

quite gd =]

first dae of school in 2010

hiie...
todae is th first day of school of 2010 !!!! =]
happi and sad...
form teacher is ms chua ...
our ex-co form...
current co-form teacher is mrs irene leong...
anyway...
we had to sit back our old seats...
miie sittin with gary and with athena and xxjerkyxxjoeyxx behind us...
joeyy had been doin things to show that...
he doesnt like miie and hates miie alot...
why cant we be like we used to...
when i am emo...
he would say " ohh... some1's emoooo... "
when i laugh , he would say " wats so funni... talk miie and share th joke"
when i am disappointed with my results , he would encourage miie " its okayys one lah.... eu know eu try ur best can leh mah "
seriously...
why was there such a big differences between his actions and words??
i am realli sad....
is there realli no way for us to return to our we use to be??
first dae of school was smooth except for th " joey " part and th " sandy " part....
overall ...
i realli miss goin to school life...
this year i am goin to focus on my studies and try to get to either 3e1 or 3e2 next year...
so wish miie luck!!!!
=]
buaiis~!

happi b'dae daddie!!! happi 2010!!!!

HAPPI BIRTHDAE DADDIE...
wish all ur wish come true...
stay healthy 4ever....
lurve eu daddie =]

~~~
happi 2010 every1...
happi new year!!!!!
=]
i grew one year older...
same for every1 =]